When I first knew that I was not going back to teaching, I was trying to figure out what to do next. Do I go back to school? Do I get a full time entry-level job at a corporation and work my way up? What about a part time job so I can make money but be off enough days during the week to travel? I am a pre-planner so when I don’t have a plan I get stressed out. So I was stressed and worried about what I was supposed to do next. The only thing I knew to do for sure was to pray. I kept praying about what to do next for weeks. I finally reached out to a family friend for some encouragement and spiritual guidance. I told our friend how uncomfortable I was teaching and how I was thinking about going into IT. He questioned if IT was the right move. He told me that the uncomfortable feeling was God trying to get my attention; God was telling me that I needed to make a change. He encouraged me to keep praying and that God would show me what to do.
A week or two later, I was in a church service; still trying to figure out what God was having me do next. During praise and worship, the Lord puts on my heart to be a worship consultant. I want to travel to different churches and help them improve their worship services. I want to train worship leaders to effectively lead worship for their congregations. I told the Lord that I don’t feel qualified to do this job, and to be quite honest, I’m not. The only thing that qualifies me is the blood of Jesus and the anointing. I heard a Bishop say that God has given us the grace to do everything He called us to do. When I first heard this, it was like a light bulb went off for me! I realized that I can do everything He called me to. I felt that I was not qualified because to me, I haven't shown myself any abilities to do what's needed to be a worship consultant. But then I realized that I haven’t seen the abilities needed yet because I haven’t been put in situations where those abilities have had to be used. Philippians 4:13 says, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." This scripture has taken on a brand new meaning for me. I’m going for everything that’s mine! I truly have no reason to fear. Why would He call me to something He didn't create me to do? I refuse to believe that after seeking God's will and plans for my life that He would place dreams and ideas on my mind and heart for me to follow, but then not be able to accomplish them. That's the opposite of Jeremiah 29:11. If we believe that God is God and that His word does not return void, then we have to believe what the Bible says! As my mother-in-law says either we believe God or we don't; we either believe the Bible or we don't!
After I decided to be a worship consultant, another family friend of ours told my husband that I should record a CD. I never really considered doing a CD on my own because I never felt like I was good enough to do it. I’ve struggled with self-confidence all of my life, but that is a different story for a different post. Since I knew I was leaving teaching and I was on this faith journey, I knew that I had nothing to lose. I chose to go for it. So thus began this journey of this website, blog, songwriting, and traveling.
I really don't know what the next season of my life looks like, but I know that come January my life is about to be unrecognizable. God is going to blow my mind with the doors He is going to open for me. I believe that God is going to do some miraculous things in all areas of my life!
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